A Dwelling in the Darkness,
A Life Outside of Time,
A Place Where I‘m the Only One,
And No One’s on My Mind.
A Place Outside of Want,
A Place Outside of Need,
A Place Outside of You,
Where my Soul can Feed.
A Place to Just Be Me,
A Place Where I Escape,
A Dwelling in the Darkness,
And Time Without a Shape.
A new beginning,
The end of the old,
But where I will go,
Is still untold.
The lessons I’ll learn,
Along the way,
Will lead me somewhere
I’d like to stay.
Along the path,
There are people to meet,
But most will give up,
Swiftly in defeat.
But I’ll carry on,
I’ll persevere again,
So when I find my beginning,
It won’t be an end.
Death on the Horizon,
As stars fall from the sky,
Death on the Horizon,
And no one wonders why.
But I will hold the souls
All of you forget,
And I swear to them one day,
They will fly like a jet.
They will linger on,
Through their silence and the pain,
As Karmic Hells Rains down,
Burning like Acid Rain.
A moment in motion,
A warp of the mind,
A step out of place,
My boundary a line;
I will do unto others,
As they have to me;
Vengeance is key,
Karmically.
But we are kind,
In this brave new world;
We are of one mind,
And rarely surled.
But if you step,
Over my line,
You will immediately know,
What it is to be sine.
For I freeze out,
Those who would preach,
And set time and will,
Out of their reach.
I condemn those who prey,
Upon the kind and the meek,
And only I know,
That you are truly weak.
So if you’ve not the will,
To strengthen your soul,
I blacken your mind,
Darker than coal.
I will condemn your actions,
And all that you are,
For divided factions,
Won’t travel far.
So get in line,
Before it’s too late,
Or a warp of the mind,
Will be your fate.
When no matter what you do,
No matter what you say,
The world throws a curveball,
Each and every day,
Try to persist,
Attempt to linger on,
And perhaps maybe one day,
It will know that you are strong.
But until that day comes,
No matter what they think,
Believing in yourself,
Will bring you to the brink
Of inspiration renewed,
And perspirational gains,
So dodge those curveballs,
And run toward where you aim.
One day I spied a raven,
Soaring over sea,
Then saw it glancing down,
Looking straight at me.
“What a blackened beauty!”
I exclaimed to myself,
"What a sight to behold!”
As it soared above the delph.
The raven heard & dipped its wings,
Glittering in the sun,
Singing a tune long forgotten,
Of doing what I mun’.
So off from there I went,
Ne’er once glancing back,
As I hummed to the raven
Of the darkest black.
This is not the end,
But a cycle that renews.
So take hold of your Self,
And pay your Soul’s dues.
As we spin through Samsara,
I measure Karma,
So please live with Karama,
As you fulfill your Dharma.
For that is the path,
It is your Way ahead,
And I have naught but Patience,
As I collect my Dead.
Each and every debt,
Will be repaid to me,
Each and every life -
I exact my fee.
Then I pick a new wheel,
A new cycle to turn,
Leaving rotten souls behind,
To feel thermodynamics as they burn.
I have lost before,
I have lost again;
I remember each how,
I remember each when.
But I’ve also come to terms,
With who I am,
And now with each how,
I become better than.
So I continue my march,
Though the journey’s long,
Lifting my head to the skies,
As I sing a dirge song.
For each and every how,
Was a little death,
As you cleaved my soul,
Until you thought me bereft.
But I linger on,
In the darkness of the night,
Looking to sun, moon, and stars,
And the clouds’ ghostly light.
A subsumation
In my veins,
An indescribable sensation
Driving me insane.
What would you do,
If you knew you didn’t matter?
What would you do,
If you saw bloodshed splatter?
Would you get a rag,
And help to clean the mess?
Would you get a pen,
And record, to then obsess?
Would you learn from their pain?
Would live to sing again?
Would it even matter
With subsumation in your veins?
When the sky is crawling
With ribbons of white light,
When its darkest blue
Then turns to darkest night -
That is when you'll see
The truest of your foes;
That is when you'll learn
What nobody knows.
That is when you'll travel
Farther than you knew;
That is when you'll see
That I believed in you.
For in the darkest night
You freed me from my hells,
And though I am Dark Light
I have much to tell.
So now I'll tell a story,
One hidden within me,
As we return to years of glory
From sea to shining sea.
And as we spin through time,
I question where we’ve been.
Do you look to the past
To find your Future’s kin?
What if they were,
In that picture in a book?
What if just one glance
Was really all it took?
Could you be reunited
By gazing ‘pon their face?
Would total concentration
Bring them through time and space?
How strong is your will?
Would you bend the Earth to you?
Or do you sit and stare,
Wishing it was all through?
If I could gift you will,
Determination of True Strength,
I would do anything,
And I would travel any length.
For I don’t leave my kin,
Not in pixels nor in time,
And if it takes forever,
Then Forever I will climb.
To know what was,
And what will never be;
To see the future,
And speak infinity;
To go where others,
Have only fled;
To be a mother,
Of the dead;
To seek and find,
What was never lost;
To Comprehend Time,
And all it cost;
To trod behind,
But never catch;
To be defined,
But never matched;
To live with insight,
Of what was not said;
To live in hindsight,
Where others led.
I will go
Where none have been,
And I will lurk,
There unseen.
For never before
Have you contemplated me,
Never before,
Did you see.
A woman at war,
A battle within,
When star signs collide,
I read their sins.
I collect all the guilt,
And seek all the pain,
But what’s left for me,
Is hate and disdain.
So choose your sides;
Choose fast and choose well,
For I see through the lies,
And bullshit they sell.
Those lacking remorse,
And set in their ways,
I condemn
To inanimum days.
I’ll write what isn’t written;
I’ll do what isn’t done;
And when nobody listens,
I’ll pay the price of one.
For I can see the future,
As I know the past too well,
And I know the lies of violence,
Are bullshit that they sell.
I sat once by myself,
Rumbling in the dark,
And in that insane instant,
Lightning gave a spark.
It spoke to me of what will be,
For I knew what had already been;
It told me to seek out,
My spirit’s long lost kin.
But as I sought them out,
Each one hid from me,
And finally I realized,
That I’m not meant to be.
A path like this wasn’t trod,
Before that fateful day,
But in their silence I grew stronger,
And learned to pave The Way.
I thought I wrote this all for you.
I was an idiot, through and through.
I wrote it all for me you see:
To break the bonds of my misery.
I can be free;
I am right now.
And I choose to soar -
And won’t worry how.
The gods will provide
The wings that I need,
And the Universe
Will unfurl its deeds.
I’ll soar higher
Than I thought I desired,
And forget all the bullshit
Stuck in the mire.
Free I will be
In body and mind.
Free I will be
In the Universe’s Time.
To improve upon perfection,
One must find what they do well,
Practice every day,
But it is not necessary to tell.
To improve upon perfection,
Each day try harder than the last,
And through the blood, sweat, and tears,
A better future you will cast.
To improve upon perfection,
Toward heaven one must strive,
And when at last you reach yourself,
Perfection is your drive.
A nepenthe for my soul
The hermit brought to me;
Unbeckoned and uncalled for,
But just the remedy.
“Drink my dear,” he said to me,
“And all will soon be well;
I heard your soul calling out
As from grace it fell.”
I took the bottle in my hands
And put it to my lips,
But, Hesitating, as I do,
He guided my fingertips.
The fiery liquid warmed my soul,
And quickened all my thoughts,
“I told you do not fret, my dear;
You think all that you ought.”
And at these words, I saw him now,
And recognized his face:
The other half of my shadow,
That did not fall from grace.
I think I smiled wider,
Than I had done before,
As I filled with knowledge,
I used to have and more.
I remembered, in that moment,
Whom I used to be,
And my future flickered,
Like a light upon the sea
(From the nepenthe’s remedy).
I thanked the hermit for his kindness;
It was nice to see his face,
And I got up with mindfulness,
And put my shadow in its place.
You'll spy a city
'Pon an Aventine Hill;
One built of bones
Of the victims I've killed.
But don't worry, dear friend,
Take strength, dear heart,
For the blood of the others
Won't keep us apart.
To be made of flesh
And marred by bone,
To be doomed by none
But forgotten tones,
To breathe the dark
Without a spark,
To be the faze
And feel the stark,
To want for nothing
And have it all,
To breathe in violence
And still stand tall,
To whisk away
The hearts of men,
To feel their souls
Shriveled then,
To be alone
Amongst the world,
To be untold
Fury unfurled.
Life, order, logic -
Ties that bind the mind.
Thinking never lessens;
It only passes time.
But time without true structure,
Thought without true aim...
Will you pass the test,
Or live your life too tame?
A game of the mind
Surpasses sound and thought;
And skipping through time...
Will you reason all you ought?