Abhorrence

One body, one soul,

One voice & one mind,

Never again

To be two of a Kind.

I felt all alone,

Until I found you,

And your kindness, compassion -

Your love, all shone through.

Never before

Did I know comfort or trust,

And never again,

Will I give all that I must.

I thought I could change

All the wrongs in my life,

But without your love,

I only know strife.

I’ve seen all my errors,

And calculated their cost,

But what hurts the most,

Is the love that I lost.

And no matter what life,

Or pathway I choose,

I will give it my all,

For I have no excuse.

I discarded your love,

And didn’t give you the chance,

But what befell us,

Was not happenstance.

So I turn to the Heavens,

And her stars in the sky,

I turn to the silence…

Though I still wonder why.

But I’ll pray for the best,

Though you deserve more,

And I pray I will rest,

Though I am all I abhor.

Come to Pass

We are at the threshold,

Of a new world;

The Apocalypse came,

And from Earth we were hurled.

But I vow I’ll be back,

In space and due time;

I swear I’m on track,

And of sound mind.

But I am coming for you,

And I don’t back down -

My thoughts reverbing

Through minds with sound.

And all that you think,

See, hear, and do -

All that you are

Is in my mind, too.

I will not run,

And never again hide,

Whether or not

You’ll be by my side.

For this is my lot;

The die have been cast,

And all that is foretold,

Will soon come to pass.

Seize the Wounds

Seize the wounds

Of my tacit heart,

Seize the fissures

As we grow in parts.

Complicit in

All that you’ve done,

Complicitly tacit,

Though not yet One.

But I gift my heart,

And my life to you,

As you seize the wounds

I never knew.

August 2, 2017

I met you on my journey,

Ages and aeons ago,

But when I see you know,

I know not where to go.

I commiserate with Silence,

As love exacts its toll,

But I will keep the Promise,

I made once, long ago.

All You Need to Know

I’ve seen it all before,

And it begins again:

The blood, violence, and lust,

Of very powerful men.

They seek it as they did;

The cycle is renewed;

Look to the past,

For the future you.

Learn to be braver,

Than you thought you could;

Even if you cannot save her,

You will see that you are good.

And when our fates are set,

No matter where they go,

I wish you the best;

This is all you need to know.

Pushed, Then Pulled

To be pushed, then pulled,

Then thrown away. . .

I thought I knew you,

But I didn’t that day.

It hurt my heart

To think I was free,

Only to be chained

With bonds of Misery.

But I will rise stronger

Than I thought I could.

I will unchain my heart,

And burn it by the wood.

For without my heart,

I know I will be free;

Free to be myself

And know not Misery.

Tranquil Reflections

Tranquil Reflections

On all I see and do,

Tranquil Deflections

As the winds blow through.

I think I smell a tempest,

I can hear it in the breeze,

And it is time to reflect

On my soul’s dis-ease.

Once I found a friend,

A friend within myself,

But upon further thinking,

I put it on the shelf.

And now I sit alone,

Contemplating whom to be,

As I sit and reflect,

Breathing tranquilly.

The Moon & Rays of Sun

And though life may be hard,

I gift mine now to you,

Willing at the last

To do what I must do.

I will balance Karma,

And right where I went wrong,

And sing in darkened hour

Of my own dirge song.

I know I’ve died before,

Not very long ago;

I know I’ll die again,

It was always to be so.

But. my dear, don’t fret,

One day we’ll meet again,

Two halves joined as one:

The moon and rays of sun.

And when I have no one,

I will turn to you:

A family divined from gods

I channel unto you.

And I will resurrect

By the evening dew

The souls you once knew well -

I give their lives to you.

We will travel in the dark,

Under cover of the night,

And though we wring our hands,

We do not feel fright.

A family like this,

There has never been before:

A long forgotten prophecy,

From the days of yore.

Warp of the Mind

One Day You Will Fly

And Finally See,

The Dreams of Our Past

Are Yet To Be.

For What Is Gravity

But Rifts Of Time,

And What Is Stardust

But a Warp of the Mind?

Do Not Worry, Dear Heart,

I Am Not Far Behind,

And One Day You Will Smile

At a Soul Undefined.

Intertwined

I See Your Eyes,

Mesmerized,

When The Plan

Falls Through,

But Worry and Fret Not,

My Friend,

Soon I Will See You.

You’ll Look Back,

Then Think Twice,

On What I Did to You,

And You Will Smile,

Cheeks Brimmed Wide,

Because I Follow Through.

And When Dark Light

Has Second Sight,

You Will Know

Whom I’ve Become:

A Tempest Storm

To Pull You In

And Undue The Wrongs

They’ve Done.

And on That Night,

Bathed in Dark Light,

We Will Be as One,

Spirits Intertwined at Last,

Blessing What We’ve Become.

Rambling

Rambling & Musing,

Whilst Loosing My Mind,

And What I Become

Is the Fabric of Time.

Burdened Too Late,

But Not Far Behind,

I Will Be Sure

That Mine Will Be Fine.

Burdened Free,

From Me You Will Be,

For I Seek Now

My Destiny.

Rising From Ash

And Those Left Behind

One Day I Will Soar

Undefined By Your Mind.

One Step

One Step Closer to The Crone,

One Step Farther From You;

One Step Upon the Stair,

My Burden Almost Through.

For What I Thought Was Love,

Is Only Disarray,

And What I Thought Was Safety,

Is Only Dismay.

One Day You Will See,

By Then Too Late,

With Salt Crusted Eyes

That I Am All You Hate.

For What is The Crone

But a Reflection of You?

A Mirrored Refraction

Of All That You Do?

But I Turn And Walk Away,

As I Always Do,

Head Held High,

Because Death Follows Through.

Liminal, Subliminal

Skeletally Subliminal,

Causality Liminal;

Is Your Sight Set on You?

Would You Really Follow Through?

All the Hopes and Wishing You Do?

Would You Work to Make It True?

Would you Grind Flesh to Bone?

Or Only Impart What Others Intone?

Would You Merely Sit and Groan?

Would You Tune Your Own Tone?

If the Liminal Could Be True,

Do You Know What You Would Do?

Would You Mark the Threshold True?

Is Your Sight Set on You?

Are You the One

Who Will Follow Through?

A Climb Through Shadow

A Climb through Shadow,

A Doorway to Fate,

Where is the Past,

If the Future is Late?

What Would You Do,

To Earn Back Time?

Would You Clip Your Wings

And Crawl in the Grime?

If I Could Gift You

Control of Fate,

Would You Take Her Thread,

And Walk Through Hades?

Would You Hold My Hand,

In a Distant Land,

Or Would You Turn Your Back,

Because of What I Lack?

Either Way,

I Will Trust in You,

And Still I Bless

Everything You Do.

For What is Love

Without Trust?

And Without Trust,

There’d Be No Us.

If My Words Are My Only Gift to You,

Just Know That Love Follows Through.

Dearth

A Dearth of Duality

Has Led Us to This Time -

A New Gate is Needed

To Bridge with the Divine,

For What was Never Heeded

Was Duality of Mind:

To Cleave Oneself in Two

Is the Greatest Kind.

And When You Bond to Yourself,

The Good and Bad Within,

You Rise, Transcendent,

Above A Body Full of Sin.

And When You Pass Your Test,

And Teach These Lessons Well,

New Knowledge and Insight

Will Be Yours to Tell.

Choose Your Path

Have You Peered into Your Blackness?

Have You Seen the Well Inside?

Have You Faced the Life You Chose?

Will You be Happy When You’ve Died?

If You Could Live Your Life Again

What Ending Would You Choose?

Would You Do It All the Same?

Knowing You’d Still Lose?

Do You Believe in Second Chances?

Or That Fate has Cast Your Lot?

Would You Wipe the Past Away,

The Way You Scrub Away a Spot?

Would You Choose for Yourself

Or Listen to Souls More Wise?

Would You Step in to New Life

With Widely-Opened Eyes?

Or Would You Choose to Come Again

Beholden to Your Lies?

Would You Pick the Path You’ve Led

The One Now Set in Mise?

Eyes Be Gone

I’ll Tell a Tale

And Weave it Well

Intending to Deceive,

But I Impart

A Loaded Dart

With Poison

At My Leave.

And if You Thought

You Knew Me Well

There’s Always

More to Learn:

A Golden Heart

Enclosed in Dark

For Which One Day

You’ll Yearn.

But Fool Me Once

And I Will Rise,

With My Eyes on You,

With Loaded Darts,

My Deadly Art,

And I Always

Follow Through.

First Attempt

She peered up toward the sky.

A Blackened Void began appearing in the distance.

A pin-prick at first, it swelled and widened, undulating into space itself.

It grew - spinning and rotating

A darkened red rim formed at its outermost edges - a barrier to quell the blackness.

The center swelled outwards and then back into itself, and then outwards again - a repetitious viscous swell of vinyl ink absorbing all the light around it.

It grew larger and larger, higher than a ten story building, blotting out the trees and skyline behind it.

It happened quietly and quickly, and no one seemed to notice, or care, except her.

Two young girls stepped out of the void, much younger than she.

She raised a bemused eyebrow as they walked down the concrete path in the park toward her.

She knew why they were, and what they meant to do.

The smaller one came up to her and reached toward something in her pocket.

The girl’s trembling wrist was marked with a faded tattoo: a remnant of the past that disclosed her poor judgement.

The woman smiled at the girls, unfalteringly. At least they did this face to face. I’ll give them that much.

Follow Through

Indignation, Consternation

Are what See me through,

And when you take My Darkness

I’ll take the Light from you.

I’ll do what I do best -

I’ll sneak and play pretend,

And when your soul is broke,

I’ll laugh while you try to mend.

For what is a true woman,

But One who bears the Cost

Of Protecting Listless Lambs

Through pain, fury, and exhaust?

And what you’ve done to Me

Will now be Condemned to you -

A Life of Hellfire Spent,

As Darkness Follows Through.

Then Indignation, Consternation,

I will gift to you,

And you will See My Fury,

And be Frightened by Follow-Through.

Prismatic Tomes

And then One Day You’ll See,

With Misshapen Misery,

That the Misery of the Past,

Possibly Couldn’t Last.

You’ll See a Brighter Day,

Prismatic in its Array,

And Glooming in the Gloam,

Under the Ocean’s Foam,

You’ll Begin to Wonder ‘Why?’

That All They did was Lie.

But Earth’s Beauty We Will Roam,

Sharing Our Ancient Tome.